This week was an emotionally and mentally exhausting week! And this blog is going to contain more personal stuff than only about working out. But it will all tie together.
So, a couple weeks ago I was working out, doing the banana football throw over, you remember the one, I was never able to do it until recently and this time I could stand up every time, and pretty easily. Only a few reps into it, I got a bad pain in my breast. I think my exact words to Laura were owww my boob hurts! I did it 3 times in a row, with pain every time. Unfortunately I am not good at doing self exams, actually I haven't done one in about 2 yrs I think. But the next day I was still thinking about the pain, it didn't hurt anymore but I decided to check and there was lump. So, even after that I waited another week to call the Dr's just to make sure it wasn't going to go away or maybe it will denial and terror!! I finally called, she had me come in a couple hours later and sent me right from her office to get a mammogram and ultrasound. Myself, the dr and the technicians doing the scans could all feel it, it's pretty big, but they said it was in 'acceptable parameters' on the scans. I'm relieved but still wondering what it is at this point tho. So, I got a call Friday from the dr saying she went over the scans with the Breast Care Center and she is sending me to a breast surgeon. I'm so confused bcuz I was just told it was all ok, and now I'm going to a surgeon. She said bcuz of the significance of the lump I have to go. So, next Tuesday I see the surgeon and we will hopefully figure out that it's nothing. I am trying to tell myself it's all fine, but I'm really terrified!
When I opened up my blog page, I never intended to tell you any of this, but there it is. And the ties that bring it to working out, if I hadn't been working out I wouldn't have known there was a problem at all. If I hadn't been losing weight and getting in shape the last few months, I may not have even been able to feel the lump. Laura pointed out that it has made me more aware of my body and she's right. I am so thankful that I found her and the gym for all kinds of reasons!
Ok, now on2 some of the good news! I lost 3 more pounds this week woohooo to bring my total since mid December to 19 pounds! Not something I thought I would or could accomplish. But I have and I have actually loved it!! I love Laura, the women I work out with and the entire gym atmosphere. You don't see lazy people standing around like I have seen in many other gyms, you see everyone there working their asses off to get stronger, better and more fit! We may all have different goals, lose weight, tone up, get big, push yourself to lift more than everyone else, get better for your sport, but no matter your reasons, everyone looks happier when they are there! I've never seen that anywhere else. Not just gyms but even Chuck E Cheese, yea kids are happy but parents are stressed. At the mall the mom and daughter are happy but the dad is pissed lol At Ironworks, everyone is there because they want to be. It's a good think for my mentality. I've never been the optimist and feeling good about what I'm doing for myself is a step in the right direction 2 the positivity.
So, I know this wasn't my typical blog, sorry if you hated it, BUT if it gets you to want to better yourself by working out, GREAT! If it just reminds you woman that you should do self exams then even better!
I will talk to you all next week :) xoxo
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