Week 2 of working out

So, working out this week was a little different with the holidays. So was eating, eek, LOTSACOOKIES! I still worked out twice but on different days and times. I was going Tuesday and Thursday nights at 6pm. However this Thursdays class was on Christmas Eve and was changed to 6am! I did set my alarm but turned it off and went back 2 dreamland where I wasn't sore or working out but I was munching on chips and cupcakes :) just kidding, I don't think I've ever had a dream about food, huh weird.
SO, I worked out Tuesday as always, good workout. Then Saturday, and HOLY SHIT did I work out Saturday! I was literally pushed to my limit! I was nauseous and shaky and thought my heart was going to explode, literally wondered if that could really happen? do ya think? cuz it felt like it was right on the cusp of KAPOWEEEEE! I realized how the people on Biggest Loser were feeling. I always thought what babies, they cry, they vomit, they whine! Well that was me! Pitiful and embarrassing but there it is. I whine "I. CAN'T. DO. THIS." as Laura, my instructor said YES YOU CAN TINA! so I did finish, this was the elliptical, WHICH I HATE! So my next 3 cardio gos she was nice enuf to let me do the treadmill, which isn't easy, but ANYTHING IS BETTER THAN ELLIPTICAL! SERIOUSLY! I don't think I've run since I was in 5th grade. really. I've tried to remember back to a time I was running and I don't remember any after that. sad. But I did a good job on the treadmill, inclined and RUNNING for a certain amount of time, then slowing down to walking, then running, then walking. Although I felt like my head was still running when I got off, it was good and I would actually like to do it again. SICK! I can't BELIEVE I just said that! I also apologized to Laura for being such a pu**y! and she laughed and couldn't believe I just said that word and then said if I was a pu**y then I wouldn't have finished! See, I told u she was good :)
SO, I weighed myself today and haven't lost any weight this week, but with all I ate, I also didn't gain any so i consider it an ok week.
There is a contest at the gym starting Saturday the 2nd. A weight loss challenge that lasts for 12 weeks. I had to set a goal for the 12 weeks and I set it for 20 pounds. The challenge will go by percentage of weight loss, not pounds though. They are also going to measure and do photos (optional) but I am thinking maybe I will do both. If I do, maybe I will post the pictures, but the measurements are staying with me, sorry.
This week and next week, I am going to work out 3 days instead of 2 and am thinking maybe 4 days the week after, but I will see how I feel. After yesterdays workout, I can hardly lift my arms to wash my hair, really hehe. But on a good note, it means I also don't feel like lifting the fork to my mouth, so there's a plus!

Working Out & Losing Weight

I started working out last week, in a class called Boot Camp, and yes it is AS HARD as it sounds. ESPECIALLY cuz I am in the WORST shape of my life!!!! And my friend Desirae told me I should blog about it. She also wants me to post pictures, eek. Before and after I guess. I said NO WAY am I posting before pictures! I was thinking Biggest Loser in their little shorts and sports bra, aummm NO! But I will include one from my sisters wedding in May. It's me dancing with my young niece in her wheel chair. (Marisa has Cerebral Palsy) The dress shows off all the disgusting fat and flaws :( Last week and this coming week the class is only offered twice a week, but starting next week they will have up to 10 classes on different days and times. I am thinking if I can afford it, I would like to go 3 to 4 times a week. The classes are an hour and 15 min. ISH lol They are not like any classes I have ever gone to before. We are in the actual gym, working out on machines, with weights. And she does 8 different things each night. You do 4 sets for 10 reps each right now. I will tell you after my first class last Tuesday, when I got up Wednesday, my BUTT HURT! lol as the day went on my thighs, front back, in and out hurt and then THE ARMPITS hurt to even put deodorant on, seriously thought how strange BUT when I went on Thursday the other woman said their armpits hurt too. who knew lol SO after working out again, I woke on Friday and my abs hurt soooo bad I thought I must have broke something haha but nope, just working out muscles I didn't know I had apparently cuz today is Sunday and although I'm still a little sore, it's waaaay better! I am 37 and this is the FIRST time I have ever wanted to work out. I actually look forward to going. It's also nice because the gym is really close to my house. OK so on Friday morning I weighed myself and I lost 3.5 pounds after just 2 DAYS OF WORKING OUT!! How frickin exciting is that! Only 57 more pounds to go hehe I will let you know how it goes after this coming weeks classes. Also, just to let you know I am not changing how I eat at all, maybe someday but not at this time. I like food :) Take care all!

ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH BEST BUY SUCKS!

Does anyone else shop at Best Buy? I mean people must, the piece of shit place is still in business! Maybe other BB in places that are not on the Vestal Parkway in NY don't suck quite so much, but I really find that hard to believe! I have made numerous purchases there in the last month, been in there 5 or 6 times and EVERY SINGLE TIME I had to beg for service, walk THEM through their jobs and encounter employees that had NO IDEA what their jobs where and pretty much played dumb (hopefully they were playing) on getting someone else to help me. SERIOUSLY! as sad as that is, I promise you I am not exaggerating! I have worked in retail for about 18 years and have been in retail management for 10 of those years. I don't understand how a company would stand for such asinine employees?! I ended up returning an item today because they were so awful! An item I really wanted and was excited about but with the customer service I received I COULD NOT keep it! The manager that was helping me on the sales floor was disgusting and it put me over the edge. I will pay more to go somewhere else if it keeps me from shopping there again! When the person returning my item, who was very friendly and poor thing I was pissed at this time, asked why I was returning, I said how awful the manager was and they knew EXACTLY who I was talking about! So WHY DO THEY STILL WORK THERE? UGHHH My Road rage was definitely kicking in to shopping rage with that place! NEVER AGAIN!
Now, for my next Blog, maybe I will try something on a more positive note lol :)

whatever comes to mind

I decided 2 start this blog initially as a sort of diary. Get things off my mind. At the time Michael Jackson had just died and I was feeling torn between being a fan of his music and sickened at the thought that everyone was so sad because he was accused numerous times of being a child molester. I wasn't sure how to feel. If he really did do the things he was accused of, then we are better off without him, if he didn't then the accusers should rot! It seems to me he did so many good things, but if any of the negative were true, then in my eyes, it cancels every good deed. I can't imagine I am the only one who felt that way, BUT I never posted my thoughts because I figured people would think I was awful, a man just died and I wasn't sure if I should feel sad or happy? Since I've never been one to give a shit if anyone doesn't like my opinion, I figured I would say my thoughts on it.
From what I have observed of other humans, my mind seems to work differently than most. I also seem to piss people off a lot with my opinions. I see a lot of things in black and white. No in between, you are right or wrong. You are never kinda right or kinda wrong. ex. I shot the guy and he died but i just meant to hurt him, not kill him. well DUMBASS you shot him! you are a murderer, no way around it in my eyes. just telling you this as a warning so if you have a topic you would like to discuss with me, now you know, im not a nice sweet girl who will agree just to appease you. screw that. i like being right :)

1st

This is my first blog. I am hoping getting my mind clear of thoughts will ease me